Feel the Rain
It has been such a long time since I have put fingers to keyboard for My Art of Motherhood. So much has happened. Lock down, recovery, reflecting, re-prioritising, surviving. Uncertainty, so much uncertainty. Like for so many others my sense of balance, my ability to just 'be' is something that has not only come to the fore, but is now an active priority in my life.
I have always been exceptionally driven, always looking at the next venture, which has pushed me to always go higher. But what am I missing out on in the meantime? I think most of us have done some reflecting of this sort through the unprecedented experience of going into a whole country lock-down. Realising what matters to us. What doesn't. What is truly important.
Striving for a remarkable life for me reflects my passion and desire to help people, I am always so purpose driven no matter what pursuit I am engaged in which also creates an intensity that can feed stress. We never know what is around the corner and one day it will be the end. What do I need to do differently? Life is now.
Supporting a growing business through an experience like lock-down whilst having children at home, a house to run and no reprieve created a massive strain on my nervous system. It became all about surviving the days, surviving as a business, surviving as a family.
Yet building resilience through this experience and some further challenges of late have enabled me to find contentment again, to feel settled and happy.
One realisation I have had however, is that I have lost the sense of fun in my life. I don't know if the cause was the survival focus triggered by lockdown, or the focus required in recent years in building a new business, the focus on learning and growing, the sleepless nights juggling young children and a teenager over this time. Most likely a compound affect, regardless it has resulted in my inability to experience that true light hearted laughter. I am finally content and happy again but so different, so serious. Strange as it seems, I feel like I almost need to 'relearn' how to have fun, to find what fills me with that sense of light, carefree laughter.
Live, love, laugh. It is such a cliche, yet it is so simple. Living, loving and laughing to me means feeling the rain on my skin. Breathing in deeply the fresh air of these pre spring mornings. Soaking in the smiles and laughter of my little treasures (growing up far too quickly).
Striving to live everyday is now the most desired challenge to date and specifically to find the sense of fun in the unremarkable of the every day. This new challenge requires a reset in focus and reflection on priorities everyday, thankfulness for the little things, soaking in the 'everyday' moments that I will treasure for my lifetime.
The unremarkable, may just be the most remarkable of all.
